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    July 02

    Affirmation

     

     

     

    I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
    I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
    I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
    I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
    I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
    I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone



    I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
    I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
    I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
    I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

    I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
    I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
    I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
    I believe that family is worth more than money or gold

    11 of 365, June 23, 2009

    I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
    I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

    I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
    I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
    I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
    I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

    I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
    I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
    I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
    I believe in love surviving death into eternity

     


    I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
    I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
    I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
    I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

     

    Cheers,
    SC

    December 27

    While Traveling in Time…

     

    This entry is very special… one of the first that i actually Written it on a Paper and not directly on a PC; so here it goes:

    “ I’m now in an airplane heading from Seattle – US to Frankfurt – Germany in a 10h flight..

    When you fly a lot across continents, you realize how remarkable the world we live in and how time is spread all over it… when i left Seattle it was almost 2 PM, few hours later i looked outside the window to see a very special scene… the moon… a FULL MOON… so perfect and so clean… i never saw the moon that close before…

    IMGA0017 (i actually took this photo from the airplane)

    That inspired me to open my Paper notebook and start writing… and while everyone around me started sleeping and just when the lights on the plane went down.. i Just realized something….

    Just because it’s “Suddenly 4 AM” doesn’t mean that i should feel sleepy!!!

    Which led me to a nice conclusion… lots of time we get carried away doing stuff that we don’t particularly want or desire… just because doing them is what’s appropriate at the time..

    So my advice to you is the following:

    Don’t do something just because it’s what’s appropriate at a given time / location.. do it because it’s what you would do in ANY given time or location.. Because if you had the power to slide into a different time or location… Your Goals Wouldn’t Change…   Only constraints will.. and your Life will go on… like the moon is always the same size no matter where or when we see it..”

    Cheers,
    SC

    December 09

    I Wish I was a Poet… But I'm saving the last Dance…

    Today it was raining a LOT in Lebanon, i woke up hearing the sound of the rain on my balcony; it was an eternally amazing feeling to see how a small drop of water that can do small & even un-noticed effect on practically anything… can do so much when there’s 100s of 1000s of them dropping all over..

    Today was different for me… because i know that i’m a different person than i was before.. therefore i’m going to show you the 2 faces i have now… the old one .. and the new one…

    The first face –> the old me… today would’ve been like this… i woke up.. i hear the rain whispering in my ears.. i would’ve definitely feel nostalgic… and i would’ve watched it … while singing in silence… and that would be my song…

     
    I wish i was a Poet

     

    I Wish I was a Poet By: Janny Loseth

    I've listen to the falling rain play rhythms on my roof that takes me far away remembering a love song… Impossible for me to tell how many times I've tried to describe to you the way I felt about you Sometimes I felt that rock'n'roll no longer had no sense at all the songs I used to sing never brought you closer....

    la,la,la,la....

    I stopped beneath a falling star and wished I was a poet who'd express himself in beautiful confessions

    I'd tell you how you cause me pain each time I stood before you betrayed by all the needs that burn inside me....

    la,la,la,la….

     

    The Second Face: the current / new me… today Goes LIKE THIS… i woke up.. i see the rain… i remember that it’s December… the month that has hold everything… the month that has all the memories.. all the changes.. i look back… i remembered that it happened that i used to have a 1:1 dance every 3 years… just one… with a special someone then… today i look at the rain and i smile… because that chapter of my life has ended and a new one has just started…

    and it has a Title…

    I’m Saving my Last Dance….

    SC

    November 22

    UN ROMAN D'AMITIE

    GLENN MEDEIROS & ELSA UN ROMAN D'AMITIE

     

     

    Sometimes I think of me and you
    And every now and then I think
    We'll never make it through
    We go through some crazy times
    And everytime I wonder if I'll be losing you
    But I never do

    Oh my friend you give me a reason
    To keep me here believing
    That we'll always be together this way
    And you know my friend you give me a reason
    To make me stay
    And even through the longest night the feeling survives
    Seems that I can just look at you
    And I find the reason in your eyes

    Tu sais il me faudra encore du temps
    Pour être sure d'aimer quelqu'un et de l'aimer vraiment
    On a toute la vie devant nous
    Mais garde bien tes sentiments
    Et puis surtout
    Ecris-moi souvent

    Un roman d'amitié
    Qui s'élance comme un oiseau
    Pas une histoire d'amour vacances
    Qui finit dans l'eau
    C'est un long roman d'amitié
    Qui commence entre nous deux
    Magique adolescence
    Où tout est un jeu
    Quand tu prends ma main tout va bien
    Fais comme tu veux mais ne dis rien
    Une amitié qui s'élance
    Comme l'envol d'un oiseau
    Pas un amour vacances
    Qui finit dans l'eau

    C'est un long roman d'amitié
    Qui commence entre nous deux
    Magique adolescence
    Où tout est un jeux
    And you know when you look at me
    You'll find the reason in my eyes
    Quand tu prends ma main
    Quand tu prends ma main
    Fais comme tu veux mais ne dis rien

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    A very Special Song that reminds me of when i was a Teenager... Hope you like it;

    Cheers,
    SC

     

    October 14

    The Last Lecture...

     

     For many years i've been asking my self this one question: if i would to vanish tomorrow... What would i want as my legacy?

    That specific Question kept on influencing my life... kept on influencing the way i was looking at life... kept on influencing practically everything i did... Kept on influencing SAMER...

    At September  1st 2008 at almost 5 AM... i changed my Facebook Status to ... 1.9.08 the Dawn of a New Era..

      Facebook Status

    At that specific Day i decided to start a new era of my life... With Only One Focus... A Focus on Answering this question: "if i would to vanish tomorrow.. What would i want as my legacy?"

     Well for the People who really know me closely... they already sensed that.. i started to take care of my health more... Work out regulary.. and  i'm giving more time to friends and family ( still need some work in this area... but i'm trying Smile )... and thinking more out of the Box.. and one of my favorite time of the day... is when i hold my mobile in the evening before i sleep and start DELETING OLD Text MESSAGES... (YES DELETING THEM!!!! ... Especially those from CH****L  for those who are asking now Tongue out)... My Past did DEFINE my Life... But it wont Define the way i'm going to live any more... They are all Sweet Memories that i will always live with... and will put a light to my Future...

     Today i was working out in the GYM and i was watching an interesting and yet VERY INSPIRING show... That was about "The Last Lecture"... here's a Brief on that..

    On September 18, 2007, computer science professor Randy Pausch stepped in front of an audience of 400 people at Carnegie Mellon University to deliver a last lecture called “Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams.” With slides of his CT scans beaming out to the audience, Randy told his audience about the cancer that is devouring his pancreas and that will claim his life in a matter of months. On the stage that day, Randy was youthful, energetic, handsome, often cheerfully, darkly funny. He seemed invincible. But this was a brief moment, as he himself acknowledged.

    Randy’s lecture has become a phenomenon, as has the book he wrote based on the same principles, celebrating the dreams we all strive to make realities. Sadly, Randy lost his battle to pancreatic cancer on July 25th, 2008, but his legacy will continue to inspire us all, for generations to come.

     http://www.thelastlecture.com/ 

      The show was very Touching... i really had tears in my eyes... hearing the story of a person i really don't know... and i knew about him for minutes... luckily it was almost 6:30 AM so noone was around to see me Tongue out..

    I Always knew that whatever you have for your self will go when you're gone (money... cars.. houses.. etc)... But your influence on others Would Last Forever...

    For many This seems very hard... you may think that only Inventors, Writers, Poets, Artists and some big rich or very successful people etc can make difference in other people's lives...  in countries or economies... or can define the world we live in today.... Well guess What! you can be a farmer who live in a place where he haven't met more than 10 people in his entire childhood and not more than 100 people in his enitre life... and still live with the same level of happiness and self satisfaction of a very successul Billionaire...

    Conclusion: The WORLD is Very BIG!!! with Unlimited Possibilities... But YOUR World is Smaller than you think... that's why there are moments in life where you can forget who you are or where you are just by looking at the smile of a child... or the beautify of a flower moving slowly by the wind...

     I saw a movie once.. it's called the "Holy Man" it had Eddie Murphy in it... there was this scene when he was talking about the story of the girl who was running on the beach to help the small fishes who reach the beach & stay on the sand until they die... so she was throwing them back to the sea.. it seemed like a hopless effort... so he asked her: "why are you doing this?.. you know that you can't make a difference... there are too many fishes and you can't stop what's happening"... she smilled at him and held one dying fish and throw it back to the sea... and told him... "FOR THIS PARTICULAR FISH... IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE!!"....

    My Niece Ghida (God Bless her Soul) died from Cancer few months ago.. she was barely 3 years old.. she tought me & my family the meaning of life in ways you will never imagine.. she didn't graduated from university; she didn't built a hospital or won a nobel prize.. she didn't even realize what was happening around her.. and yet she managed to influence others...

    SO CAN YOU.....

      I had an interesting chat with a friend of mine last week.. i was telling her about how many difficulties i'm passing through in my personal life... and i really loved the story she told me.. there was a 10 years old girl complaining to her mother about school.. teachers.. friends... father.. toys.. etc.. and how life is hard and had soo many negative things in it...

    the mother smilled and asked her.. what do you like the most... the girls said ... i like CAKE... so the mom took her daughter to the kitchen.. and told her: open your mouth... and then she put Flour in it... the girl was surprised.. and said what's that?? ... she then broke an egg.. and said . open your mouth... the girl was also very surprised... and said "Mommy... why is that??? i thought we were having Cake.... all of that tasts awefull!!!" ... the mother smilled and told her...

    "Sweety... Flour.. Eggs... and lots of other ingrediant that tastes horrible alone... Would Make a Nice and really Tasty Cake Smile " 

      So the Moral of my Post.. is that you really can't teach anyone anything... but you can tell them stories and have them decide how they would want to apply them to their lives... and best of all.. Make your Life Story... an Inspiring Story that would influence others...

    Samer

      

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    I dedicate this Post to Professor Randy Pausch May God Bless His Soul

     

     

     

    September 23

    A Song to Share

    Hey.. it's me again :P...

    i was chating with a friend today (a Nice Friend :o) ).. and i was telling her about this Song... this is perhaps the only song that i refused to memorize the lyrics... i just let go and have it touch my heart and soul... i just feel that an Angel someplace is telling me to Smile..

    with no particular reason... this song has been on my mind for the past few days.. and i know that when i listen to it... i'm not focusing on the words or the lyrics.. but on how beautiful this song it... i only know one sentence of it.. All i need is you My Valentine..

    SC

     

      

    April 21

    From the Middle of the SEA!

    Hey Everyone,

    I'm writing from the Middle of the RED SEA, seriously! I'm on a Boat with some of my friends and colleagues and we have spent 1 night in middle of nowhere and it was FANTASTIC!

    It's like 6:15 AM now, the sun has already risen, but it still feels like "Morning", it's Windy so the boat is shaking which makes me more inspired & excited to write …

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    Yesterday was extra-ordinary, I dived for the first time, and it's an original experience, no matter how many movies you've seen you have to try it..

    In the Afternoon I saw DOLPHINS!!!! One of my favorite creatures, I was soooooo excited and my cheeks hurt from smiling,

    In the evening we sat on top of the boat with a guitar and sang some old Country songs, chatted a lot and even started composing a Neat song :o)..

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    What I liked about that day was that for once in a long while, I was Disconnected from everything; I didn't open my laptop ( I'm talking about yesterday :P ) my mobile was off, I simply didn't want to think of anything else;

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    You know a lot of time you have a lot going on in your life and definitely a lot on your mind… you try to relax and take a break but you simply take a physical break and keep everything working in your head.. So try to sometimes take a Brain Vacation.. And relax and don't think of anything at all or think of something that is not related to your work or life… like for instance right now I'm looking at a spot in the middle of the sea… where you find some birds doing some acrobat moves jumping vertically into the water to grab a fish..

    I mean life is so fascinating and it's happening around you.. You need to take some time out and let go … you would be impressed to know that you don't need 7 days of holidays to relax… or those 100 hours of sleep.. All you need sometimes is just take it easy..

    Cheers,

    SC

     

     

    December 20

    My 28th Birthday!

    Today is the 19th of December... it's my 28th Birthday...
     
    it has been a while since i last wrote a personal Blog post ... beside a video i saw .. or a song i've heard.. or a movie i liked...
     
    i woke up Today at 4:00 PM... Yes 4:00 PM... i'm not a Kuala... but the reason for that is that i tried to sleep throughout the entire day ... because NOTHING could've happen to Beat the surprise i got on my Birthday!! it has been a loooooooonnnggg time when i felt sooo happy before i slept...
     
    i've had a LONG 10 days ... been traveling a lot ... from Tunisia to Jordan to Lebanon ... and yesterday 18th i had like 4 Business Events at the same day... and i arrived to lebanon on the Same day of those 4 events.. and to be more precise i arrived straight from the airport at exactly 9:30 AM to metropolitan hotel carrying my bags and started one of them :)
     
    I was soo tiered that i only wanted to "arrive" to my house and just sleep .. no questions asked...
     
    the last event at the hotel was with the community of Lebdev.net and they brough me a Cake for the occasion of my Bday :)... i was smiling .. and cut the cake.. they told me to wish for something... and i did...
     
    what i didn't know is that my wish came true... QUICKLY!!!!!
     
    i came back to my house.. with my luggage ... carrying myself basically... to find out that my dear friends has gathered in my House ... and made me a big "SURPRISE!!!!" ...
     
    i did have a feeling that there will be a surprise ... but what i didn't know that i will actually be Surprised! Surprised... 
     
    The poor guys suffered from waiting for me!!!! some of them even SLEPT!! and then here i was...
     
    there was balloons all over... pictures of LA7MEH (MEAT) on the wall... cake and stuff here and there...
     
    you can see from the photos that i was soooooooo tiered.... i was looking at the photos today and just saw my eyes droping dead Smile...
      
     
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     That surprise happened soo fast for me ... it was simply like a dream..
     
     
    I'd like to thank All of my Friends for this fantastic Surprise!!! ...
     
    - Missane for the Cool Photos and keeping everyone ALIVE
    - Carla for surviving till i showed up
    - Elsa for drawing a camouflage at the dinner to make the surprise more realistic
    - Akram because he simply left his brother after he just arrived from the airport to be there
    - Chantal & Sandy for Coming
    - ..... and everyone all in all .. because it really meant a lot to me...
     
    Sometimes you feel you are lucky because wherever you go, whoever you become, no matter how far you have reached in your life... you have people who care about you and just know you soo well...
     
    I can't possibly forget to thank this particular person... Nobody Does it bettthroughout the Good Times and Bad Times... weither you were in Abu Dhabi... or in Beirut... Brothers & Best Friends we will always Be... Thank you Nour... you knew exactly what would make my birthday just perfect... and how to realise my wish.. that i didn't even have to wish for anything when i cut the 2nd cake!
     
    in the end my Birthday Surprise was just Fanstatic... and everything was soo great...
     
    Looking back at my life... with all the ups and downs... and the successes and failures ... i have my Friends... THE WORLD IS MINE
     
    Cheers,
    SC
     
     
     
     
    December 15

    Shift Happens - Did you know?

    This is a Very interesting Video...  i just wanted to share it with you

        
    Cheers,
    SC
    October 17

    Everybody's Free!

    This is relatively an Old Song i was listening to it this morning.. i believe it has very interesting advices.. i Highlighted the Lines  that i liked about.. also watch the Video it's also interesting...

    Cheers,
    SC

     

      

     

    Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
    If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
    it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
    scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
    than my own meandering
    experience…I will dispense this advice now.

    Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
    understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
    But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
    recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
    you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
    imagine.

    Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
    effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
    bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
    never crossed your worried mind;
    the kind that blindside you at 4pm
    on some idle Tuesday.

    Do one thing everyday that scares you

    Sing

    Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
    people who are reckless with yours.

    Floss

    Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
    you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
    yourself.

    Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
    succeed in doing this, tell me how.

    Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

    Stretch

    Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
    life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
    wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
    olds I know still don’t.

    Get plenty of calcium.

    Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

    Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
    you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky
    chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t
    congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
    choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.
    Enjoy your body,
    use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
    think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever
    own..

    Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

    Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

    Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

    Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for
    good.

    Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
    people most likely to stick with you in the future.

    Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
    should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
    lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
    knew when you were young.

    Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
    in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

    Travel.

    Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
    philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
    that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
    noble and children respected their elders.

    Respect your elders.

    Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
    maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
    might run out.

    Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
    look 85.

    Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
    supply it.
    Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
    fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
    ugly parts and recycling it for more than
    it’s worth.

    But trust me on the sunscreen…

    July 29

    Way Back into Love

    I went to the States for like 14 days, to attend several events in Orlando & Seattle... and as you know flying from Beirut through Paris to US is a long way... and it happened that i watched the Movie "Music & Lyrics" Starring Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore;

    2 Words: Fantastic Movie!

    The main Song of the movie "Way back into Love" just described the way i was feeling... here are the Lyrics for it:

     
    Way Back Into Love
     
    I've been living with a shadow overhead
    I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
    I've been lonely for so long
    Trapped in the past
    I just can't seem to move on

    I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
    Just in case I ever need them again someday
    I've been setting aside time
    To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

    All I want to do is find a way back into love
    I can't make it through without a way back into love
    Oh oh oh

    I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
    I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
    I know that it's out there
    There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

    I've been looking for someone to shed some light
    Not somebody just to get me through the night
    I could use some direction
    And I'm open to your suggestions

    All I want to do is find a way back into love
    I can't make it through without a way back into love
    And if I open my heart again
    I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

    Oh oh oh

    There are moments when I don't know if it's real
    Or if anybody feels the way I feel
    I need inspiration
    Not just another negotiation

    All I want to do is find a way back into love
    I can't make it through without a way back into love
    And if I open my heart to you
    I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
    And if you help me to start again
    You know that I'll be there for you in the end

    Oh oh oh
     
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    So Read the lyrics watch the Video and tell me what you think...
     
    Cheers,
    SC

     

     


      

    June 27

    A glimpse into the Future!

     
    If you are wondering how Technology will evolve.. Well Picture this:
     
    You're going to a restaurent with some Friends... you sit on a table.. browse the menu and order right from the Table.. place your camera on the table and all the photos just Pops out straight on the table, you can scale the size of the photo.. rotate it.. and move it with your fingers for others to see it and play with it.. and simply copy it to their device by draging it to their camera or mobile .
     
    When the Bill Comes.. and you want to split it.. it's in the shape of Cards, you place your credit card on the Table.. Each friend does the same.. Everyone choose their items and drag them to Their credit card... and Choose the % of the Tip they want to Leave... and Click PAY Directly ON THE TABLE...
     
    What is this Table? ... it's the New Microsoft Surface... Check it out! ( it's Real... )
     
     
    (I had the privilege to See the early Models of it.. when it wasn't yet a Table.. when i was still an MVP and i was in  a visit the Microsoft Research Center in UK couple of years ago)
     
     
     
     
    Cheers,
    SC
     
     
     
    April 29

    First Chapter of My Book

    When i was on the Way back from Dubai, few days ago, i finished writing the first Chapter of My Book...
     
    i believe i will be publishing it in 2009... on my 30th anniversary...
     
     
    If you're interested in knowning more about it .. don't hesitate to contact me... samchidiacnet
     
    Cheers,
    SC
    January 21

    The Year 2007!

    Well this is my first Personal Blog of 2007,
     
    As every year was different ... i don't see why this one wouldn't be ...
     
     
    When i went to the US in December 2006, it gave me a lot of time to think about many things.. And especially it gave me time to review the past year.. i sometimes had to wait hours in the airport.. so i was just listening to my MP3 player.. with songs that meant a lot to me during 2006 and created lots of memories.. it's funny how you can live in your own world while you are in the middle of 100s of people walking / talking / eating/ smiling..
     
    However i recall one incident that happened with me .. i was in a 5 hours flight from L.A to Atlanta.. and i wasn't feeling good.. in fact i had the Flu and you're not supposed to fly when you have that... so the pressure of the flight got into me.. and my situation was very bad.. i started bleeding from my nose.. and when i went to the bathroom and spited blood.. it was horrible and i couldn't like "Get Down from the airplane".. so i had to pass the 5 hours.. during this stressed period, i just layed my head on the window and looked at the clouds.. thinking about what would happen if i didn't make it to Atlanta? .. and i also thought about how many things WOULDN'T MATTER after that.. and how many problems would'be even be an issue if i'm not there..
     
    so i just decided that, if i made it to Atlanta and back to Lebanon.. i need to Live Everyday as if it Was My Last.. and Dream as if i'm Living For Eternity.. because in my life i saw people having a bad day because they have a drop of coffee on their shirts .. and others who were smilling because God gave them Another day...
     
    So there i was in the past year.. Crying over my Ex.. and shadowing my eyes from seeing the Sun rising everyday and smelling the fresh scent of the Morning.. and most of all .. Not smilling everyday... and make people remember my photo the way i wanted to be remembered if one day they stopped seeing me...
     
     
    So my advice for 2007.. Dream as if Live forever ... and Live as if you'll Die tomorrow..
     
    Check out my Official Website when you have the chance..
     
     
    Cheers,
    SC
     
     
    November 08

    J'ai Besoin de Toi...

     
    "Je vis dans l'ombre dès que je n'ai plus tes yeux,
    dans le silence dès que je n'ai plus ton rire.
    Comme un croyant à qui l'on a tué son Dieu,
    je continue à vivre sans raison de vivre."
    English Translation
     
    "I live in the shadow ever since I do not have your eyes,
    in silence ever since I do not hear your laughter.
    Like a believer Who's God was killed,
    I continue to live without a reason to."
     
    These wonderful Lyrics describe what happens with me everyday for the past 7 months... 
     
    Basically i'm passing through a VERY Delicate and Rough time... so i'm trying to keep my self busy with my work.. i come in early and stay late in the night ... I really am trying...
     
     
    You know something... when you listen to poetry and the amazing lyrics of songs .. and you know how they lots of time describe what you feel.. and what you're willing of do for your loved one.. and how she makes you feel... i now look back .. and proudly say that i used to really mean what i used to Sing :o).
     
     
    Any way .. Work is fine.. lots of things are changing ... but fine fine .. all Fine.
     
     
    Cheers,
    SC
    August 05

    Could it Be?

     
    Could it be?? will this be my Last Blog Entry?
     
    in about 6 hours i'll be leaving with a part of my Team To Jordan ... to continue working from abroad temporary.. The Security situation in lebanon is really Bad... so i might not be that Lucky to reach there.. or even come back..
     
    You know something.. they say that when someone is close to death.. he starts appreciating life... i know i sound very pessimistic.. but it's true.. You might live your entire life not caring about what you do or who you meet or how to act ... but if you knew that this would be the last day of your life... everything would suddenly Change..
     
    Yesterday ( Today is the 5th but it's 40 min after midnight... so i might just call it yesterday), i was gathering my stuff from my office.. because i'm leaving today.. i said goodbye to some colleagues... those people whom i see like everyday.. some good friends of mine.. some i just want to KILL sometimes ... THEN .. at that Moment.. i just wanted to hugg them .. because i have this feeling that i might not have the Honor of seeing them again.. i even looked at the offices ... i looked at the PCs ... i looked at my office... a tear was planted in my eye.. it's really hard to be in this situation ... where you say .. could it be? ...
     
    I remember when i started HBPRO... there was like 2 employees .. and now there' like 2 offices and about 24 employee.. i made HBPRO a successful Company in about 3 months.. i Worked HARD to do so.. and look at me now .. i'm asking my self .. was i a Good Manager? .. did i treated my employees the right way? .. if i never saw them again .. i really hope that i wasn't a typical "BOSS"..
     
    i was Backing up my files ... and scanning my diplomas / Awards.. and i found out that I Should be Proud of my self... because i really spend some time on scanning.. so they must be something.. but i learned that winning is nothing if you don't have someone to share it with ..
     
    it's the 5th Btw... it has been 4 months since we said GoodBye .. me and Chantal... i still miss her ... and today i just thought about how much i loved her.. and how much it still hurt me .. that my heart is beating Alone.. that she's not mine anymore ... the only difference here .. is that i knew how much she mean before i lost her... i spent sooooo many lonely nights ... Just Wishing she was here.. You KNOW what you lost when it's gone..
     
    so it's Unfair... Life can be really Cruel Sometimes...
     
    one Cab Driver once told me.. Everything that has a Beginning .. has an End... Only the One who doesn't have a Start Doesn't Have an END ( OH MIGHTY GOD Protect me on my way .. )
     
     
    Cheers,
    SC
     
    June 12

    It's Over :o) ... My HeartAck is Over ...

    After a LONG periode of sadness .. and feeling down... it's OVER .. Yes .. My HeartAck is over.. so this is my final Poem / Song i'm writing..

     

    Dream About you

     

    There was a time in my life
    when I opened my eyes
    and there you were
    You were more than a dream
    I could reach out and touch you girl
    that was long ago
    There are some things
    that I guess I'll never know
    When you love someone
    you gotta learn to let them go

    When I dream about you
    That's when everything's alright
    You're in my arms, here next to me, forever
    When I dream about you, girl you never go away
    Just close my eyes, wait for my dreams
    Cause I still love loving you.

    How can I get you to see
    that I'm falling apart
    since you've been gone
    I can never be sure
    I could ever let go
    your love is much too strong
    There are some things
    that I guess I'll never know
    When you love someone
    you gotta learn to let them go


    There are some things
    that I guess I'll never know
    When you love someone
    you gotta learn to let them GO
     
    .....
     
    And Finally here it goes...
     
    But it's Time To Face the Truth... i will never be with you....
     
    Cheers,
    SC
     
    May 05

    1 Month Later

    1 Month has past ... i still can't sleep .. i'm still not over her.. i may have cried everynight .. over her..
     
    Today i'm sitting in my office.. it's like 2 AM .. i barely hear anything moving ... just my heart that still beats for her..
     
    lots of things has changed since the 5th of April .. at first .. i started noticing other girls  when i walk around.. i didn't notice that i used to see Chantal everywhere i look.. that was something interesting girls usually don't appreciate in a guy.. i used to look at other girls .. but i never saw them ..
     
    I tried to listen to the song that described my "Goodbye" with Chantal.. here are some words...
     
     
    "Did I disappoint you or let you down?

    Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

    ....
     
    It may be over but it won't stop there,

    I am here for you if you'd only care.

    You touched my heart you touched my soul.

    You changed my life and all my goals.

    And love is blind and that I knew when,

    My heart was blinded by you.

    .....
     
    I know you well, I know your smell.

    I've been addicted to you.



    Goodbye my lover.

    Goodbye my friend.

    You have been the one.

    You have been the one for me.
    ......
     
     
    And as you move on, remember me,

    Remember us and all we used to be

    I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

    I've watched you sleeping for a while.

    I'd be the father of your child.

    I'd spend a lifetime with you.

    I know your fears and you know mine.

    And I love you, I swear that's true.

    I cannot live without you.

    ................
     
    I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.

    I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow. "
     
    You know guys... when you live Alone by your self.. you really start appreciating little things that makes you happy .. and you really fight for what you believe in .. and what you want.. and the Person that you Love ... But i learned a Lesson from all this ... that it all ends ... when you just fight ... ALONE....
     
     
    SC
     
     
     
     
     
    April 05

    Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye My Friend..

    The Sky couldn't stop Raining in lebanon tonight... So did my heart.. it didn't stop crying..

    i lost the most preciouse part of me tonight ... i lost My Chantal...

    She is the most Adorable Person i ever met... and i love her more than i love my self..

    She was the First thing on my Mind when i wake up and the last thing before i sleep...

    i loved her from the minute i saw her .. and i will Never Forget her..

    She Deserved everything i gave her... She Deserved Me..

    I don't think i would EVER Love someone as much as i Loved her...

    i was True to Her .. as she was True to me .. and she represented everything Real in my life...

    With Her i felt Alive... like i never felt before...

    I will Never Forget you Chantal... As Long as i live...

    I did everything i could to make our relationship work... i swear...

    I Love you Bebeyteh... and i'll always be there for you...

     

    Goodbye My Lover .. Goodbye My Friend .. you have been the One...

     

    Your SAM

    December 19

    My Birthday

    Hey,

     

    Today is My Birthday... i'm now 26...

     

    the past year was the best year in my life so far ... i really hope i can KEEP ON...

     

    I wish my self luck ... as many MANNNNYYYYY things are changing in my life ... Hopefully for the Best...

     

     

    Cheers,
    SC